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vulnerability.
domingo, 9 de outubro de 2011, 19:39
Elizabeth Shue once said “that being vulnerable to somebody you love is not a weakness, it’s a strength” but I beg to differ. It feels good to share your thoughts, your feelings and past experiences with someone who’s willing to listen, understand you and not judge you, I won’t lie.
Call me a skeptic, but I do not believe you can trust someone this much. At some point, they are going to hurt you. Meaning it or not. And you just gave them the path to go through with it. Of course I wasn’t always like this. I’ve been making the mistake of trusting others for years. And always ended up getting hurt or betrayed. And I think I got to a point where I can’t risk it anymore. 
It does get lonely sometimes. Though I’m quite sure I could not manage being in a relationship with someone, like, for real. The fear of rejection always haunt me.
”Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable”. Not true, many things can come from vulnerability that are not necessarily love. Friendships, betrayals, pain, drama, music… I am being boring and redundant right now and I’m wondering if I'm even making any sense at this point…but that’s it. 
All I know is that right now, I feel more vulnerable than ever. I made the same mistake again.And I can’t even put it into words or let it out like a scream. Try to take something good out of it...because there is none. I just feel worthless, meaningless and ruthless. And I don’t ever want to feel this way again. EVER.